Wow, that's deep. But I love it! Someone telling the truth about how they are really feeling in this situation, I really respect you for saying that. I know how you feel, jealous, angry and above all nervous that something might be wrong with your case, and it's alright to feel that way, we are humans after all. The good thing is, we also can't help but to be happy that people are getting things approved. We just have to trust that our turn is right around the corner. I'll make sure to say a little pray tonight before I lay for sleep, to have faith, patience and a pure heart, to be happy for members that's getting good news. Remember it's the "devil" as my grandma would say lol (what a wise woman), "he is always in the way of happiness and faith", so again keep the faith, as tomorrow will be someone else's turn that will bring them happiness their heart so desire. This is my inspiration for today.