MMM,
There is lot of rationale to your post. You are thinking of abandoning your Asylum and head back to a third county? If, what I recall reading is correct, you must answer the following:
Did you look at the Annual Country condition report issued by the Department of Justice, United Nations, and Amnesty International? What specific improvements these reports refer to?
Is the leadership of the group you belong to, still reside overseas? Find answers to all of the above, it will help you make a consciences decision.