Sankrityayan
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This may sound silly, but I am slowly realizing that I have allowed myself to senselessly waste away. It suddenly dawned on me yesterday that a few lowly bureaucrats have wielded enormous power over my life. Theirs has been the unseen hand that has silently played a significant, life changing, and maybe career altering role over the past few years.
I have waited for alomst six years now for something and I dont know what it is. Is it the green card? I suppose not, for when I think hard about it, I feel foolish. It seems that I have wished away six years of the thirty or so productive years of my life and I dont feel any happiness or satisfaction for it. I feel no hope and there are only embers left where there once was burning ambition. Cynicism and emptiness have replaced idealism and hope. And as hard as I try to see what went wrong, I have no answers.
Is this normal, or do I need to seek treatment?![Frown :( :(](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
I have waited for alomst six years now for something and I dont know what it is. Is it the green card? I suppose not, for when I think hard about it, I feel foolish. It seems that I have wished away six years of the thirty or so productive years of my life and I dont feel any happiness or satisfaction for it. I feel no hope and there are only embers left where there once was burning ambition. Cynicism and emptiness have replaced idealism and hope. And as hard as I try to see what went wrong, I have no answers.
Is this normal, or do I need to seek treatment?