You are right!!
You are right, this has been such a long process.. 8 years for me!!!
that it is hard to get out of the mind set.. Some times I just sit with a blank stare without much to think about and I feel like something is missing... I got so used to worry that now I guess i kinda miss it and it's hard for me to move on.
I continue to check rupnet, and also this forum...
In any case thanks for all your help!!!! you are awesome.