How to cope with life after asylum?

[insoutenable]

I've been granted asylum since the summer, which I'm very grateful for, but I am still struggling a lot. I have a therapist that I talk to about these issues, but I want to seek advice, perspective, and thoughts from people who have been through this process.

There is a part of me that feels even more afraid of persecution now that I am officially an asylee. I feel like I made myself an even bigger target to my country of persecution now that I am officially an asylee. My country of persecution is well known for internationally targeting and even killing its citizens that are abroad and hacking their phones and spying on them. I still feel super paranoid and afraid that once my country of persecution finds out about my asylee status, I'll be in danger.

Another thing I'm struggling with is my family. They don't know I applied for and received asylum, they don't know I'm not coming back. If they found out why I applied for asylum, they would disown me and if I were back in my country of persecution, they might even hurt me. I am so afraid of when they finally confront me and ask why I am not coming back. I am afraid of them hurting me and I am also afraid of losing them which I know doesn't make much sense.

I am also constantly afraid that my asylum status will be terminated. I am afraid the US government will look back at my asylum application and find something that makes them terminate it. I am afraid that once I apply for the green card this summer, they will realize they should have never given me asylum in the first place.

I am terrified of ever traveling outside of the US both from a fear of country of persecution and fear from the US. I am afraid that if I travel to another country, it will be easier for my country of persecution to target/abduct/kill me. I am also afraid that when I come back from a trip abroad, the US will review my file and deny me entry and deport me to my country of persecution.

I've been so traumatized by both my country of persecution and the asylum/immigration process of the US. I thought that by finally getting my grant of asylum, I will finally be able to relax, but my stressors and fears only changed rather than disappeared.

Has anyone been through similar fears and worries? Has it gotten better? Does anyone have perspective or advice to share?

 

[Mishomasr]

I've been granted asylum since the summer, which I'm very grateful for, but I am still struggling a lot. I have a therapist that I talk to about these issues, but I want to seek advice, perspective, and thoughts from people who have been through this process.

There is a part of me that feels even more afraid of persecution now that I am officially an asylee. I feel like I made myself an even bigger target to my country of persecution now that I am officially an asylee. My country of persecution is well known for internationally targeting and even killing its citizens that are abroad and hacking their phones and spying on them. I still feel super paranoid and afraid that once my country of persecution finds out about my asylee status, I'll be in danger.

Another thing I'm struggling with is my family. They don't know I applied for and received asylum, they don't know I'm not coming back. If they found out why I applied for asylum, they would disown me and if I were back in my country of persecution, they might even hurt me. I am so afraid of when they finally confront me and ask why I am not coming back. I am afraid of them hurting me and I am also afraid of losing them which I know doesn't make much sense.

I am also constantly afraid that my asylum status will be terminated. I am afraid the US government will look back at my asylum application and find something that makes them terminate it. I am afraid that once I apply for the green card this summer, they will realize they should have never given me asylum in the first place.

I am terrified of ever traveling outside of the US both from a fear of country of persecution and fear from the US. I am afraid that if I travel to another country, it will be easier for my country of persecution to target/abduct/kill me. I am also afraid that when I come back from a trip abroad, the US will review my file and deny me entry and deport me to my country of persecution.

I've been so traumatized by both my country of persecution and the asylum/immigration process of the US. I thought that by finally getting my grant of asylum, I will finally be able to relax, but my stressors and fears only changed rather than disappeared.

Has anyone been through similar fears and worries? Has it gotten better? Does anyone have perspective or advice to share?

I think you need to talk to your therapist man! 90% of your fears are baseless on anything i don’t know about your family issues for sure but since when the US government terminate asylum status unless you lied about some dates or something very obvious that they have on the system as the issue of the green card process is different than your asylum they only compare dates and applications details or if you made a crime which wont let get GC but it won’t terminate your status! Good luck but as i said most of your thoughts are not true.

 

[Mishomasr]

I've been granted asylum since the summer, which I'm very grateful for, but I am still struggling a lot. I have a therapist that I talk to about these issues, but I want to seek advice, perspective, and thoughts from people who have been through this process.

There is a part of me that feels even more afraid of persecution now that I am officially an asylee. I feel like I made myself an even bigger target to my country of persecution now that I am officially an asylee. My country of persecution is well known for internationally targeting and even killing its citizens that are abroad and hacking their phones and spying on them. I still feel super paranoid and afraid that once my country of persecution finds out about my asylee status, I'll be in danger.

Another thing I'm struggling with is my family. They don't know I applied for and received asylum, they don't know I'm not coming back. If they found out why I applied for asylum, they would disown me and if I were back in my country of persecution, they might even hurt me. I am so afraid of when they finally confront me and ask why I am not coming back. I am afraid of them hurting me and I am also afraid of losing them which I know doesn't make much sense.

I am also constantly afraid that my asylum status will be terminated. I am afraid the US government will look back at my asylum application and find something that makes them terminate it. I am afraid that once I apply for the green card this summer, they will realize they should have never given me asylum in the first place.

I am terrified of ever traveling outside of the US both from a fear of country of persecution and fear from the US. I am afraid that if I travel to another country, it will be easier for my country of persecution to target/abduct/kill me. I am also afraid that when I come back from a trip abroad, the US will review my file and deny me entry and deport me to my country of persecution.

I've been so traumatized by both my country of persecution and the asylum/immigration process of the US. I thought that by finally getting my grant of asylum, I will finally be able to relax, but my stressors and fears only changed rather than disappeared.

Has anyone been through similar fears and worries? Has it gotten better? Does anyone have perspective or advice to share?

Also the officers of the airport can’t review your case at the airport loool that’s untrue and if you have RTD and no crimes no one can block you from entering back the US

 

[chiller]

Hello insoutenable, I think I have a good guess as to the country you’re talking about. I’m going through everything you described in your post. I still haven’t put in my application yet but I’d love to talk to you about your experience, is there any way that I can get in touch with you?